Self-centeredness

Lately I've got some interesting things going on. Nothing major, just some fun stuff. I've been much more socially active lately, and am really enjoying myself. I actually have some friends locally, and I've been spending lots of time with them.

The problem lies in that I have other friends whose lives aren't quite as fun as mine are right now, and I feel like I'm.... being inconsiderate? Self centered? I've really tried to stay available to them, but I wonder if I'm slipping just a little bit. That is a problem for me, because as much fun as I'm having lately, my friends are important to me. I'm not entirely certain what to do...right now my social activities are building, but some of them are still in the foundation portion. I don't want to feel like I'm blowing people off that I care about because I've got other things going on, but on the other hand, I don't want to damage these foundations that I'm building, and stop doing what I'm currently doing. Guess it's all about balance. *sigh* I have other words on that subject...

Now, it's nothing these friends have said or done, but sometimes I wonder if they see or hear something from me and they say "Oh Jesus, here goes Juby again, talking about how she does this or that with this person." I very highly doubt it, they're not that kind of people, and I'm certain that they're just as happy for me as I am. :) But there's that niggling little voice... I think it's a recurrance of "the bean". I hate the bean.

Thinking about blogging more often, now that I've dissappeared for months, lol. We'll see. :D